November 22 2024, 18:09
Dracula
Director: Terence Fisher
Release year: 1958
Christopher Lee’s Dracula is iconic. He’s tall, his face carries an animalistic quality when in vampire mode, he’s sometimes slow and imposing, but then he strides up castle stairs three at a time. Beneath his civility is a barely held in check hunger. It’s wonderful to watch. As critic Tim Stanley said, "Lee's sensuality was subversive in that it hinted that women might quite like having their neck chewed on by a stud."
Against this power you need a wily, intelligent Van Helsing, and Peter Cushing has those qualities in abundance. I definitely saw this growing up, but I didn’t remember much of it this time around. The finale, where Van Helsing jumps onto a table and runs at the curtains, was familiar, but that was at the very end. The scenes in the local inn are parodied in The Fearless Vampire Killer’s (a comedy that I don’t find funny) and probably many other places. The interiors are lush and colourful, and the clothes pleasing on the eye, which makes me wonder what sort of budgets Hammer was playing with at the end of the fifties.
Director Terence Fisher was clear that being bitten by a vampire was a sexual act. When Dracula closes the door of Mina’s bedroom, the last thing we see is her face looking lustfully and submissively up at her predator. This must have caused a stir in cinemas across the world in 1958, pre-dating Psycho and Peeping Tom, two more serial killers targeting young women and shocking social mores, by a couple of years.
November 20 2024, 20:09
The Eternal Daughter
Director: Joanna Hogg
Release year: 2022
Julie, an artist and photographer, takes her mother to a luxurious country hotel for her birthday, but is unsettled by strange noises and half-seen figures. The hotel was once her mother’s family home, and the visit unearths unexpected memories.
Tilda Swinton plays both Julie and her mother, Rosalind, which took a while to get used to. I kept looking to see where the cutaway or stand-in was. Julie spends the whole film trying to make her mother happy, and her mother both appreciates the attention and is frustrated at her daughter being ‘a fusspot’. Julie is sacrificing other areas of her life to please her mother, but can’t ever get the resolution or reaction she needs to be able to relax. Her mother remains distant and elusive.
The setting is wonderful, and the supporting cast adds to the fun, especially the increasingly rude receptionist. It looked like director Joanna Hogg wanted bits to feel like a ghost story, but the potentially spooky scenes didn’t feel spooky at all. Hogg can’t help but make things about making things. As a drama and character study, it’s a moving piece of work, and the ending got me.
November 19 2024, 21:00
The Car
Director: Elliot Silverstein
Release year: 1977
Deputy Wade Parent is raising two daughters alone after the death of his wife and policing the usually peaceful small town of Santa Ynez. A black car with darkened windows drives out of the Utah desert and runs two cyclists off a bridge into a ravine. When the deaths start to mount and local suspects ruled out, Wade has to martial the town to stop the car from killing more innocent victims.
This was one of my favourites when I was a VHS kid, up there with Piranha as a repeat watch, another Jaws rip off. I’m surprised how much I cared for the people of Santa Ynez this time around. James Brolin and Kathleen Lloyd are bursting with charisma and easy chemistry, and the supporting cast give all the potentially stereotypical characters unexpected life, helped by the various relationships and backstories that a film like this doesn’t usually bother with.
It’s a town that sees it’s brightest and best mowed down by an evil car, and the grief of their loss is palpable. Once the killing starts, a surprising amount of time is spent with people grieving, which adds to the tension when the car does show up. The standout scene is when the car mysteriously appears in Wade’s garage and won’t let him leave. It’s a shark on desert roads with a knowing, malevolent streak.
November 18 2024, 20:19
Enys Men
Director: Mark Jenkin
Release year: 2023
A woman in a bright red coat walks the barren landscape of an island somewhere off the coast of Cornwall. She’s a volunteer monitoring wildlife, in particular a clutch of white flowers of which she records the soil temperature at their roots every day.
It’s a life of strict routine—measure the soil temperature, drop a stone in the shaft of an old tin mine, make a cup of tea, record the details in a notebook. She’s alone, but she talks to a girl who she sometimes sees standing on the shed roof, and the old stone that stands against the horizon is sometimes closer than it should be, and there are children, women, miners in her dreams.
The landscape seems to press closer, and it begins to feel like the island is part of her, and time is playing tricks. A visiting boatman with supplies wears a yellow raincoat that she's previously found washed up on the rocks. The radio speaks of the anniversary of an accident fifty years before, but the date is in the future of her written temperature log. The mystery mostly resolves itself but not completely, which is just the way I like it.
November 17 2024, 21:42
Australia
October was a blur of holiday preparations, work dramas, and then boom, we were on the plane, digitally clutching almost forgotten eVisas, trying to use ridiculous neck pillows, and making ill-advised small talk with customs officers. Two weeks on the other side of the world staying with an old friend in Sydney and (too briefly) hosting our Perth-living son.
We’ve never had a holiday like it, and certainly not since the children were born. I felt young again out there. An October spring. Now I know what a cicada sounds like. I’ve driven the long road to Byron Bay and tried all the coffee shops. There were bookshops everywhere I turned. I drank so many flat whites I had to switch to long blacks. Everything went right. Unlikely parking spaces. Accidentally discovered perfect beaches. A humpback whale and her calf off Lady Bay.
There’s too much to try and write about. It was a holiday that I’ll remember when I’m old and can’t travel anywhere. It’s given me an appetite for more.
September 21 2024, 17:38
Spirals
Returning from holiday, I went into an overwhelm spiral, and I'm only just getting out of it. Nothing too serious, but frustrating nonetheless. Lots of loops are closing, but it’s taken me a while to acknowledge that, and they’re not yet completely closed—my father, his house, my hip pain, general work tumultuousness—life is different and will become more so.
For a couple of days I thought I was going to do #31DaysofHorror again, even though we’re travelling to Sydney, Australia, for the second half of October. I wasn’t thinking rationally. I just wanted to fill the empty spaces around me without knowing what I was doing. Got to keep busy, you know? Something doesn’t feel right, so I’ll watch a horror film. Luckily, I noticed, so we’re good.
The picture is of a collage by Brazilian artist Beatriz Milhazes, from her exhibition at Tate St Ives. The exhibition was called Maresias, which apparently means an Atlantic breeze, and lots of the other pieces fitted more into that idea, but this one stood out to me because it had a different energy. It’s called 'O Rapaz, The Young Man'. I love the femininity of the phallic shape, and in person it's really big, over six feet high. It commands the space.
Coming back from St Ives, the feelings of freedom, exploration and fun dissipated quickly. I knew I’d get the post-holiday blues, but that didn’t stop them coming. Busy blues. Hectic blues. Some of the damage was self inflicted, some from circumstance, but the horse is back in the stable, the phallus is back in the trousers, and the skies are clearing.
I want to finish the short story I’m writing before the end of this month and post it for my Patreon friends. It’s called The Box. More information soon.
August 29 2024, 22:11
Gluteal tendinopathy (and me)
Sometimes in my groin, sometimes at the front of my right hip, sometimes deep in the buttock, the pain started with the long drives to Wales, then got worse when I started golf lessons. A Pilates machine debacle led me to Physio One, who suggested it might be hip arthritis, then never returned my calls. Physio Two said it was deep gluteal syndrome. He gave me exercises (that worked), then switched career to become a tree surgeon.
In May, the pain returned, so I found Physio Three who diagnosed gluteal tendinopathy. She also suggested I get a GP referral for a hip X-ray (which revealed I also had hip osteoarthritis).
Gluteal tendinopathy and hip osteoarthritis in a desk-bound homeworking software engineer have similar treatment plans. My glutes weren't strong enough to do their job, so my inner thighs and quads were picking up the slack, which was part of the reason I was in pain. My tendons had degenerated because I wasn't using them enough, and I then hammered them with too much exercise too quickly.
To repair my hip and leg ecosystem, I needed to engage my brain. The physio gave me some rules:
- Reduce daily activity until you find the baseline where symptoms have disappeared
- Any pain that is above 3/10 is the body’s message to do less (“reduce load”)
- Accept that rehabilitation of chronic tendinopathy can take 6-12 months, and shortcuts only delay progress
- Start with daily isometric exercises (holds), then add slow eccentric movements (repetitions)
- Keep walking, but increase distance slowly, reducing if pain is above 3/10 the next day
- Use the gym to safely add heavier loads to strength exercises, but obey the 3/10 rule
- When ready, progress to gentle plyometrics (e.g. low hops and jumping), then to sport-related movements, before returning to sport
The treatment plan requires consistency and control. Life doesn’t always allow that. Right now, I’m on holiday, in a flat on the third floor at the top of a steep hill. When we booked it, this was a good thing, but the reality is I’ve had a couple of miserable days recovering from asking my tender tendons to do too much. I probably overdid it in the gym in August, thinking I was fitter than I really was. Unlike muscles, tendons take twenty-four hours to complain, which is another complication. It can be a stop-start affair.
Four months in, I’m still in the strengthing phase. I haven’t yet reached the excitement of hopping. New exercises mean new stresses on my body. I can’t always tell what’s hurting and why. I also struggle with knowing which type and amount of pain is necessary and which is holding me back. It’s an ongoing physiological education. I’ve watched a lot of YouTube videos.
There's little online about the mental health aspect of all this. Up to a year is a long time to recover from what the medical profession considers a common problem, and that’s if you stick to the treatment plan and pay rigorous attention to the signals your body is giving you. What if a person’s baseline activity level is below what’s required to do their job, or care for a loved one? I can’t imagine. In that I feel lucky.
EDIT: If you want to know how it worked out, here’s part two from January 2025.
August 20 2024, 18:13
The Stendhal Syndrome
Director: Dario Argento
Release year: 1996
Imaginative and clichéd, intriguing and brutal, this film is primarily about rape, torture, and insanity. Asia Argento is Detective Anna Manni, sent from Rome to Florence on the trail of a serial killer and rapist. Anna collapses while visiting a gallery, overcome with hallucinations from the works of art. The killer steals her gun and uses it to capture and rape her when she returns to her hotel. Traumatised, Anna tries to continue to hunt Grossi, but her personality begins to change, and she loses her grip on reality.
It's implied that the killer is also overwhelmed by art, although it's not clear if he also has Stendhal Syndrome. Anna becomes more aggressive, and starts making her own art to process her trauma. Grossi kidnaps her and rapes her a second time, holding her in a cave covered in graffiti. Terrified of the hallucinations the graffiti brings on, something breaks in Anna, and the strength she finds both saves her and tips her into insanity.
Thomas Kretschmann as Grossi has something of Rutger Hauer about him with his confident killer’s persona and cropped blonde hair. At the halfway point the film switches to be more like Hitchcock, De Palma or late Paul Verhoeven. The blonde wig Anna starts to wear stretches credulity, and the twists and turns feel perfunctory towards the end. It’s a brave film, shocking, and Asia Argento is impressive in how hard she goes in the role. The film fizzes with ideas but doesn’t quite deliver.
August 13 2024, 18:39
The Black Cat/Trauma
Director: Dario Argento
Release year: 1990/1993
These two odd kittens are making me wonder if my Argento project is reaching its end. The Black Cat is the second story in a double-hander, Two Evil Eyes, with George Romero. Both stories are adaptations of Edgar Allan Poe. Romero’s The Facts in the Case of Mr. Valdemar is a plodding melodrama with some fun performances, especially Adrienne Barbeau, and a strong ending. Argento goes for more of a character study in evil.
A deranged, beret-clad Harvey Keitel plays Roderick Usher, a photographer obsessed with taking pictures of mutilated bodies. When his girlfriend takes in a stray black cat, Usher takes an instant disliking to it and kills it to take its photograph. That night he dreams of a medieval village where his wife is the local witch. She knows what he has done. This is the first Argento film with creature effects, designed by Tom Savini, but they couldn’t save a flat story.
Trauma is a traditional Giallo, but in America. Teen runaway Aura enlists the help of David, a journalist, when she comes across a killer in the act of beheading someone in the grounds of her family home. David is following the serial killer, “The Head Hunter”, who only strikes when it’s raining and uses an electric-powered garrote to decapitate victims. Freudian high-jinx ensue.
Based on that description, I feel even more disappointed that it was such an unexpectedly tough watch. I can’t put my finger on what didn’t work, and it could be that I’m getting tired of the Giallo formula and need a break, or perhaps these aren’t as carefully crafted as earlier works. Nineties America doesn’t have the allure and exoticism of Rome or Zürich, it's too familiar... I don’t know. I’ll try one more.
August 05 2024, 18:34
Early summer books
It started with the good: All Fours, by Miranda July. I haven’t laughed out loud so much at a book since Bridget Jones’s Diary. I don’t choose comedy novels because I take reading far too seriously. The unnamed artist makes terrible, hilarious decisions over and over, but she’s also just trying to have the horny creative life she wants. I chose another light novel next, Muriel Spark’s A Far Cry From Kensington. Working in publishing always seems so grim in fiction, and grey fifties London too, but this journey is lit up by the delightful Mrs Hawkins who starts a devastating feud with the poisonous Hector Bartlett.
My hardback-a-month project hit a wall with Parade, by Rachel Cusk. I’m surprised how much I hated this book, and I have a pattern of refusing to give up on a book once I’ve started it, so this was a blow. After a few weeks I saw sense and pivoted to In Ascension, by Martin MacInnes, because it’s sci-fi and it was on the Booker Longlist 2023. The opening act was good, set mostly on a ship exploring a newly discovered trench in the ocean, but I became overwhelmed by the dry science talk, and I wasn't interested in the arc about feeling guilty not caring for an aging mother, so I fell into the reading pit again.
The recovery: A.O. Scott’s Better Living Through Criticism: How to Think About Art, Pleasure, Beauty and Truth. A bold title, bought after listening to the author being interviewed by Marc Maron a year or two ago, and picked up because I owned it digitally. The new iPad needed a run out with the Books app. The first half of these essays on what criticism is and why it’s important was a joy. It got a little stodgy towards the end, but he reminded me how important it is to pay attention—to how I choose and how I engage with art of all kinds. (The iPad Books app is amazing, btw.)
Finally, the very interesting Double Fault, by Lionel Shriver. I was expecting not to like this because of the pickle she got into over cultural appropriation. The interviews she was doing at the time left a bad taste in my mouth. It’s dark. Winnie, a professional female tennis player, marries another pro and is crushed with envy when he begins to have more success than her. She’s unlikeable, there isn’t much tennis, but I read it in a day, admittedly skipping the melodrama and repeated arguments. Winnie has a heart of ice when it comes to competition. The Olympics started this week. It makes me wonder what’s going through the competitors minds.